Michael wasn't sure if he was reassured, if he could be reassured, but he didn't want to think about it right now. This would be different this time or it wouldn't be, and maybe he was an idiot for throwing himself right back into the deep end with Alex again, but he couldn't help it.
He needed this, needed Alex. Maybe that would mean they'd crash and burn again, and maybe one of these times he wouldn't be able to get back up again, but that wasn't right now. Right now, Alex was kissing him; right now, Alex was holding him close; right now, Alex wanted him, and Michael gave himself over to that feeling.
He wound his fingers through Alex's hair and kissed him back like nothing else in the world mattered, because right now, it didn't. Not even his own need for that something more, to know Alex wanted him the way Michael wanted Alex, not just now, not just in the moment, but even when they were apart. Alex was so damn good at walking away like it didn't matter, but he came back, didn't he?
He wouldn't keep doing that if he didn't think about Michael, want Michael when they weren't together, would he?
Too many thoughts, too much swirling in his head, nevermind all the memories resurrected - he just wanted to lose himself in Alex, and he set himself to doing just that, if still a little more waiting to follow Alex's lead than taking it himself.
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He needed this, needed Alex. Maybe that would mean they'd crash and burn again, and maybe one of these times he wouldn't be able to get back up again, but that wasn't right now. Right now, Alex was kissing him; right now, Alex was holding him close; right now, Alex wanted him, and Michael gave himself over to that feeling.
He wound his fingers through Alex's hair and kissed him back like nothing else in the world mattered, because right now, it didn't. Not even his own need for that something more, to know Alex wanted him the way Michael wanted Alex, not just now, not just in the moment, but even when they were apart. Alex was so damn good at walking away like it didn't matter, but he came back, didn't he?
He wouldn't keep doing that if he didn't think about Michael, want Michael when they weren't together, would he?
Too many thoughts, too much swirling in his head, nevermind all the memories resurrected - he just wanted to lose himself in Alex, and he set himself to doing just that, if still a little more waiting to follow Alex's lead than taking it himself.